Otep – Jonestown Tea

Otep – Jonestown Tea

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我喜欢那种复仇的快感。那种被压迫到无路可退愤然暴起的瞬间,是那么强烈地感染着我,以至于曾经有很长一段时间,我沉迷于复仇的血浆不能自拔。记得当年在小黑屋中戴着耳机独看《杀人不分左右》和《我唾弃你的坟墓》的时候,就有这样的快感。从一个弱女子到一个女汉子的蜕变,并不需要太长时间的磨练,而只需一段刻骨铭心的屈辱与仇恨。

如果说Tori Amos的《Me and a Gun》是在浅唱低吟中压抑着痛苦的话,那么,这首《Jonestown Tea》却是在屈辱中引爆了复仇炸弹。Otep被称为Sonic Youth和Marilyn Manson的合体,这不仅得益于他们在旋律金属中添加的超现实风格神来之笔,更缘于他们拥有一位绝对出色的女主唱Otep Shamaya。Otep的嗓音,非常难得地糅合了神经质呢喃独语和暴风式嘶喊死喉,在这两种截然不同的声线当中自如游走。自然地,她所带来的压抑与爆发都是极端的体验,都是带着淤青和血斑的。正是Otep的个人艺术魅力,赋予了整个乐队在编曲和演奏方面独特的女性细腻气质,从而改变了美国重金属新浪潮(New Wave Of America Heavey Metal)体大无脑的肌肉壮汉形象。

这是我目前听过的最爽的关于性暴力的歌曲。也许这样说会让人感到不适,但在这近十分钟的聆听过程中,我得到的确实是汗毛倒竖的又痛楚又解脱的感觉。父亲,在这里成了一个暴力极权的象征,丑陋、贪婪、凶残、病态,他给你造成的屈辱不仅是肉体,还有灵魂。他的精血再次进入你的身体时,早已不是生命创造时的精纯,而是伴随着杂质、污秽、病菌以及腐蚀一切的毒液。歌曲开始于这一场噩梦的结束之后,痛感已迟钝,意识已恍惚,我们甚至听不清开头的低语,只有沉重的低音吉他在延续着即将消失的心跳,伴着几声忍不住的抽泣。

渐渐地,罪恶的画面像电影般闪回,一幕幕不堪入目的镜头幽灵般狞笑着跳动。“LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!”这样的爆发让人措手不及。很难想象,从这个脆弱胸腔中迸发的岩浆竟是如此炸裂和炙人!Otep展现了他们不同与其它新金属的独到之处,“它是放肆的、批判的、残酷的、致命的、革命的、武装的和欲望的,踏过躺在他们防滑靴子下的柔软的病人肉体。”他们不是大开大阖的雄性野蛮人,也不是口水四溅的金属党人,他们更享受一种迂回的杀戮。杀人要见血,但不用利刃巨斧,只用锯齿小刀。这才是受屈辱者最有效最快意的复仇方式。

上天给了你一个强者的心态,却又让你与弱者们为伍。唯一可能的意图,便是让你复仇:“KILL WHAT YOU CAN!CHALLENGE EVERYTHING!”时隔多年,我上面提到的两部电影都有翻拍的新版。但太多的血浆掩盖了女主角眼中的仇恨光芒。当年,长发及腰的金发美女Camille Keaton在手刃四个猥琐男之后,红唇微启,嘴角上扬,眼中流露出的就是这样冷冷的光芒,映照着粼粼湖水。这种目光让我不寒而栗,多想借来面对自己的仇敌。对了,这部原名《I Spit on Your Grave》的B级片还有个牛得不行的译名,以后遇见让你不爽的人或事,可以脱口而出:X你老墓!

And it sounds like…armageddon

Sounds like…armageddon

Sounds like…cum and drink with me….

Cum and drink with me

And I remember him fucking me,

And I remember liking it,

I didn’t know any better…

And I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame…

And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday,

Every single day.. that it was my fault…

Oh, but what happened to that little girl?

Who used to dream of one day ruling the world,

Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room—beneath the moon

Destroying to create

Softly praying to “God”

What do I do now?

What do I do now?

As I secretely masturbate…

But then I’d hear his hooves coming down the floor

With a Bible in his hand…

Softly opening my door and he’d say…

DAUGHTER! The day of your attonement is due!

Well there’s 3 million sinners out there…

and that includes you!

No daddy, don’t… no daddy, don’t…

LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

NO, I DON’T WANT TO BE FREE! NO, I DON’T WANT TO BE FREE!

SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!

PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE

YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!

I’m bleeding, it’s not fair…

You see, there’s this little place I like to go…

I like to run and hide–deep inside,

Where all the nightmares are real, and all the monsters come alive,

Oh, but the things I’ve seen in soft, soft visions and terrifying prophecies,

Like serpents on the take and gods coming in all sizes and shapes

Nothing seems fulfilling anymore..

Well your temples are swollen in deceit and the body of your missionary,

He’s rotting… rotting in defeat mama?

MAMA!

Are the aliens coming to take us away? (mama?)

Is armageddon gonna happen again today?

LOOK WHAT HE DID TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!

HOW COULD YOU DO IT TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!

I will not cry… I will not cry…

I–PREFER–TO–DIE! than live–this life–of LIES!

KILL WHAT YOU CAN —- CHALLENGE EVERYTHING

Vengeance is mine…

Hey, I’m sorry baby…

please come back inside…we can laugh a little… and live and die,

no wait. see, i got this hot pot of jonestown tea

And it’s been brewing for you and me,

Oh, it only takes one sip,

Come on baby,

Surrender your lips,

I can take you someplace nice…

I can take you…someplace NICE!

Breed my disease, be my disease…

Breed my disease, be my disease…

and vengeance will be mine

It’s closer than u think…

So I entered his room at 32 past noon

With my little ritual knife…

I cut out his tounge

Liberated his wife

She loved me for it other world woman,

Well, thats what she called me (Destroyer),

the one who sets you free, (cum and drink with me)

We all die like cartoons, surrender your children,

kids who like to kill, lies…all lies….

以泪洗面

2014.01.06.

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